Inspired? Or Not!

Hello folks,

How art thou? Good I hope.

Lately I've been fee-h-eeling so unispired. In all areas. And I don't know how to get my mojo back mehn. It's soooo h-annoying!

Last night I couldn't sleep. Well, I went to bed about 10pm and was wide awake by 2:30 am. Thinking - "what shall I do with this my life?". I just don't know. I'm not where I want to be in life, but so what? Not everyone is. Ki ni big deal? Ok, I get a little bit lonely at times, but who doesn't? So again, what's the big deal? Career-wise I'm not even close to where I want to be. Not even close. Smh.

I tried to take stock of what I do enjoy doing and came up empty. I've recently (when I say recently, I mean as of last summer) taken up sewing as a hobby. I've made a few things, adjusted a couple of things and re-modified a few things. I have so many ideas, but find myself stuck. Unmotivated and uninspired to really get stuck into it.

My home needs redecorating. I did the majority of the refurbishment a few years ago and all that was left to do was the painting. Again, this has been left undone for so long it's now beyond a joke.

I tossed and turned for a few hours with these thoughts before forcing myself to sleep through the frustration. I know my God is not a God of confusion and frustration!!! I've prayed to God about it, but still I can't hear His answer. What's wrong with my ears? Or is it my heart? I just don't know.

I feel so unfocused! Grrrrrr! And I don't know where to begin to put things right. I can't even think straight about the things I do like. Anything that comes to mind I question "but why?" and "do I really like that? Or do I just think I like that?". 

Feeling like this is sooooo frustrating.

Anyone know what I'm talking about? Ever felt like this? If so, how did you overcome this feeliing? Help!

OR maybe it's this awful weather we're having here right now in March?! Lol.

Just trying to be inspired!

Until next time.

Buki

xoxox

Happy New You!

Hello Folks,

How are you all? Hope you're doing fantastic!

Oh and HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! I know I'm so late with it, but as it's the first time I'm blogging this year, what about it ey?

Where do I begin? The soul searching went well, but I guess it's one of those things we've got to do throughout our lives. I came to some realisations about myself, my life, my likes and dislikes. As always, a work in progress. That's my conclusion. Until I leave this world I will be a work in progress. Lol. 

Learning to forgive yourself for your mess ups is a beautiful thing! I had a conversation with a friend where she quickly identified that I'm too hard on myself and need to cut myself some slack. So, I've been working on that. It feels great! 

I've also been trying to be a more adventurous mum. It's for all the wrong reasons though. Lol. I'm being selfish and I don't want to let go. Lil man starts secondary school next September so I know the window's getting smaller. So every opportunity we get, we do something fun. I'm a mum just trying to stay relevant if you know what I mean. Lol.

What else? Ummm, oh yeah, I started dating again. Well, I've been on one date so far this year. Learning from my mistakes from that date and looking forward to future dates. Learning that some guys are only after one thing. Hmmm. A lesson I should have already learned by now. I realise how naive I am, and I really do live with the fairies when it comes to love and romance. Hahahaha! Well, my date brought me back to reality. NEXT!

What's on the agenda for my blog this year? How about some consistency?? I know, I'm probably the most inconsistent blogger I know. I'm sorry. I need to work out a blogging schedule and stick to it.

Anyways, It's nice to be back. Hope you all have a great week. 

Buki.
xoxox

oh, p.s. I know I'm seriously lagging behind on all your blogs. Please bear with me while I catch up. ;-)

Random info: I can finally put my hair in a high bun! Yippeee! Lol.

Merry Christmas All!

I wish you all a very merry Christmas!!! Enjoy your food and be safe!

Blog you in the new year!

Hugs and kisses!

Buki

xoxox

Just a Quick Hello and Update...

Hello, hello, hello Lovelies!

How are you doing? Great I hope!

I'm still on my soul searching break, but just wanted to swing by and invite you to join me on Facebook and Instagram!

I'm currently addicted to Instagram!!! Are you? Lol.

Feel free to join my obsession. Lol.

Instagram: ms_buki

Facebook: Buki Blogs (Need to come up with a better name. Any ideas anyone? I'm so crap with making up names. Smh).

See you there!

See you here again soon...

Buki.

xxx

Soul Searching...

Hey guys,

I'm sorry I've been away for so long. It wasn't planned. However, I do now plan to be away for a little bit longer. I'm currently doing some soul searching. I'll still be around from time to time, but I won't be posting much, if at all over the next few months. Hopefully I'll be back to blogging in the new year.

Thanks to Unveilinggold, Toinlicious, and MsTizzle for your comments on my last post. Didn't mean to be away for so long. Be back as soon as I can.

Thanks everyone for continuing to follow my blog. Really appreciate you all.

I'll be back!

Stay blessed!

xoxox

Guest Blog: Heather Von St James - Survivor!

Hello folks,
Longest time. Hope you're all doing good. I've been busy enjoying as much of the good weather (as and when possible), the Olympics, and de-cluttering my home over the last few weeks (6 full sacks sent to charity, not even counting the pieces of furniture I've put out too). Your girl has been seriously downsizing. And I'm loving it!

Now to title of this post. My very first guest post. I was approached by this lovely lady, I went on to her blog and I just had to share her story. She's an inspiration! Please read her story and check out her blog - www.mesothelioma.com.

Mesothelioma: My support system
Having a baby is one of the most remarkable moments in a mother's life. For me, pregnancy was smooth and everything leading up to the day was very easy. On August 4, 2005, the big day arrived. My daughter, Lily, was born with all ten fingers and toes via emergency C-section. Just like at every other monumental moment in my life, my loved ones were there to surround my husband and I. Everything was just as it should be at such a time.
My wish was to stay at home with Lily, but responsibility called and I went back to work. She was roughly a month old at the time and I was feeling run down. I figured it was post pregnancy fatigue. However, as I got back into my work schedule, I was out of breath, tired and lacking energy. I knew this was not just a case of being tired after having a child, so I called my doctor. I went in for a visit and had a few tests that proved I was right.
I was not just sick. I was very sick. On November 21, 2005, I found out that I had malignant pleuralmesothelioma. Lily was not even four months old yet and her mom had cancer. I did not know it then, but I had been exposed to asbestos 30 years earlier when I was just a kid. It had caused major problems in one of my lungs.
I was told that I would not live more than 15 months if I did not get treatment right away. This was not a choice. I had an infant and a wonderful husband at home. We were supposed to be going through a great time together. I could not imagine them having to go through it without me, so I had to defend myself, as well as my village. Because the mesothelioma was very bad, the treatment had to be severe and the best available.
My friends and family came to the rescue. My parents took Lily to their home in South Dakota where her mom had been raised. My husband and I went to Boston to get help from the best mesothelioma doctor we could find. His treatment was drastic. I had an extrapleural pneumenectomy on February 2, 2006. In other words, my left lung and the tissue around it were removed. I stayed in the hospital for 18 days after the surgery, recovered for another two months and then went on to the next phase-- radiation and chemotherapy.
 I started the process with a lovely support system from people around me, as I went through recovery, it got bigger. In Boston, there were people going through what we were going through. They became our friends and our support. In South Dakota, Lily and my parents tacked on a few helpers of their own. Locals and people from my past stepped up to help my parents. I never thought we would all have to go through this. Being a mother is a full-time job and I had to rely on others to do it while I got better. I had to win so I could get back to the most important job of my life.
Today, I am cancer free, thanks to my lovely Lily and my friends and family. I could not have won my battle with cancer without them. Remember always to treat life as precious and to appreciate the people you love. You’ll never know when your life could depend on them.

Heather Von St James is a 43-year-old wife and mother. Upon her diagnosis of mesothelioma, she vowed to be a source of hope for other patients who found themselves with the same diagnosis. Now, over 6 years later, her story has been helping people all over the globe. She continues her advocacy and awareness work by blogging, speaking and sharing her message of hope and healing with others. Check out her story at the MesotheliomaCancer Alliance Blog.

Heather, I think you're a courageous woman! Keep up the good work. You and your family are in my prayers.

xoxox