Who Am I?

Hi Folks,

How's it going? Good I hope.

Here's a li'l summink I wrote a few months ago. Don't ask me why, I just put fingers to keyboard and started typing. I read it tonight and thought, why not share? Enjoy.

Who am I?

I am angry
I am hurt
I am unhappy      (Yikes! I was in an unhappy place that day)
I am alone

Who am I?

I am good
I am unlovable
I am loved

Who am I?

I am a debtor
I am indebted to
I am a sinner
I am a saint

Who am I?

I am selfish
I am selfless
I am ungrateful
I am grateful

Who am I?

I am indecisive
I am spontaneous
I am rigid
I am shy

Who am I?

I am a friend
I am my own enemy
I am unforgivable
I am forgiven

Who am I?

I am remorseful
I am sorry
I am desperate
I am proud

Who am I?

I am inconsiderate
I am considered

Who am I?

I am a daughter
I am a sister
I am somebody's mother

Who am I?

I am chosen
I am redeemed      (Ahhh! That's better. Lol)
I am worth it!

Who am I?

I am all of these things and more
I am none of these things and less

I am what I am, whatever I am I own it.

I am somebody!
I am me!

Just be you
Be You Tiful!

xoxox

Inspired? Or Not!

Hello folks,

How art thou? Good I hope.

Lately I've been fee-h-eeling so unispired. In all areas. And I don't know how to get my mojo back mehn. It's soooo h-annoying!

Last night I couldn't sleep. Well, I went to bed about 10pm and was wide awake by 2:30 am. Thinking - "what shall I do with this my life?". I just don't know. I'm not where I want to be in life, but so what? Not everyone is. Ki ni big deal? Ok, I get a little bit lonely at times, but who doesn't? So again, what's the big deal? Career-wise I'm not even close to where I want to be. Not even close. Smh.

I tried to take stock of what I do enjoy doing and came up empty. I've recently (when I say recently, I mean as of last summer) taken up sewing as a hobby. I've made a few things, adjusted a couple of things and re-modified a few things. I have so many ideas, but find myself stuck. Unmotivated and uninspired to really get stuck into it.

My home needs redecorating. I did the majority of the refurbishment a few years ago and all that was left to do was the painting. Again, this has been left undone for so long it's now beyond a joke.

I tossed and turned for a few hours with these thoughts before forcing myself to sleep through the frustration. I know my God is not a God of confusion and frustration!!! I've prayed to God about it, but still I can't hear His answer. What's wrong with my ears? Or is it my heart? I just don't know.

I feel so unfocused! Grrrrrr! And I don't know where to begin to put things right. I can't even think straight about the things I do like. Anything that comes to mind I question "but why?" and "do I really like that? Or do I just think I like that?". 

Feeling like this is sooooo frustrating.

Anyone know what I'm talking about? Ever felt like this? If so, how did you overcome this feeliing? Help!

OR maybe it's this awful weather we're having here right now in March?! Lol.

Just trying to be inspired!

Until next time.

Buki

xoxox

Happy New You!

Hello Folks,

How are you all? Hope you're doing fantastic!

Oh and HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! I know I'm so late with it, but as it's the first time I'm blogging this year, what about it ey?

Where do I begin? The soul searching went well, but I guess it's one of those things we've got to do throughout our lives. I came to some realisations about myself, my life, my likes and dislikes. As always, a work in progress. That's my conclusion. Until I leave this world I will be a work in progress. Lol. 

Learning to forgive yourself for your mess ups is a beautiful thing! I had a conversation with a friend where she quickly identified that I'm too hard on myself and need to cut myself some slack. So, I've been working on that. It feels great! 

I've also been trying to be a more adventurous mum. It's for all the wrong reasons though. Lol. I'm being selfish and I don't want to let go. Lil man starts secondary school next September so I know the window's getting smaller. So every opportunity we get, we do something fun. I'm a mum just trying to stay relevant if you know what I mean. Lol.

What else? Ummm, oh yeah, I started dating again. Well, I've been on one date so far this year. Learning from my mistakes from that date and looking forward to future dates. Learning that some guys are only after one thing. Hmmm. A lesson I should have already learned by now. I realise how naive I am, and I really do live with the fairies when it comes to love and romance. Hahahaha! Well, my date brought me back to reality. NEXT!

What's on the agenda for my blog this year? How about some consistency?? I know, I'm probably the most inconsistent blogger I know. I'm sorry. I need to work out a blogging schedule and stick to it.

Anyways, It's nice to be back. Hope you all have a great week. 

Buki.
xoxox

oh, p.s. I know I'm seriously lagging behind on all your blogs. Please bear with me while I catch up. ;-)

Random info: I can finally put my hair in a high bun! Yippeee! Lol.