Friday, 15 March 2013

Inspired? Or Not!

Hello folks,

How art thou? Good I hope.

Lately I've been fee-h-eeling so unispired. In all areas. And I don't know how to get my mojo back mehn. It's soooo h-annoying!

Last night I couldn't sleep. Well, I went to bed about 10pm and was wide awake by 2:30 am. Thinking - "what shall I do with this my life?". I just don't know. I'm not where I want to be in life, but so what? Not everyone is. Ki ni big deal? Ok, I get a little bit lonely at times, but who doesn't? So again, what's the big deal? Career-wise I'm not even close to where I want to be. Not even close. Smh.

I tried to take stock of what I do enjoy doing and came up empty. I've recently (when I say recently, I mean as of last summer) taken up sewing as a hobby. I've made a few things, adjusted a couple of things and re-modified a few things. I have so many ideas, but find myself stuck. Unmotivated and uninspired to really get stuck into it.

My home needs redecorating. I did the majority of the refurbishment a few years ago and all that was left to do was the painting. Again, this has been left undone for so long it's now beyond a joke.

I tossed and turned for a few hours with these thoughts before forcing myself to sleep through the frustration. I know my God is not a God of confusion and frustration!!! I've prayed to God about it, but still I can't hear His answer. What's wrong with my ears? Or is it my heart? I just don't know.

I feel so unfocused! Grrrrrr! And I don't know where to begin to put things right. I can't even think straight about the things I do like. Anything that comes to mind I question "but why?" and "do I really like that? Or do I just think I like that?". 

Feeling like this is sooooo frustrating.

Anyone know what I'm talking about? Ever felt like this? If so, how did you overcome this feeliing? Help!

OR maybe it's this awful weather we're having here right now in March?! Lol.

Just trying to be inspired!

Until next time.

Buki
xoxox
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5 comments:

  1. Jemima15 March 2013 at 16:04

    This period of lack of inspiration as you call it in my opinion, is a phase for preparation for something huge, you need to seize it and seek God's face for direction. I am going through something similar in my life though i would call mine stagnation not lack of inspiration. The maker knows best no? . I have nominated you for an award on my blog. anything to bring you back here soon. :)

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    1. BukiBelle20 March 2013 at 14:39

      Thanks for commenting. Well I hope so o, cos it feels like everything is now moving in slow motion. Lol. I hear you though. I've been seeking God's face, He's taking His sweet time, so I guess I have no choice but to wait patiently.

      Thanks for the award! xx

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  2. N.I.L (Naijamum in London)28 March 2013 at 22:03

    I feel you
    As one grows older, it is proper to take stock. Not an easy process.
    I cant say anything 'earth-shattering' because I as myself similar questions all the time.
    My only consolation is that with good health, one can always do great things
    Stay strong
    xxx

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  3. Anonymous4 April 2013 at 21:36

    When I feel very down, I pick up my bible n proclaim God's word concerning my life. I say to myself, I am not a failure, I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Its works for me, I guess it will do same for you.

    http://trendysturvs.blogspot.com/

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  4. mr&mrs talklovealways15 May 2013 at 06:21

    you will be inspired when you read some word.

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